Devin Patrick Macphee

2009 - 2009
LocationManitoba
Age0
Cause of DeathStill Birth
Date of Birth06/06/2009
Date of Death06/06/2009
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DEVIN PATRICK (published on June 13, 2009)

DEVIN PATRICK MacPHEE With much sadness, we announce the birth and passing of our beloved son,
grandson and nephew, Devin Patrick. Devin was born and passed into the arms of the angels early
Saturday morning, June 6, 2009. Devin is survived by his parents, Melanie and Matthew MacPhee;
grandparents, Patrick and Debbie Carr: Ellen and Bryan Gilker; Cecelia and Denis MacPhee; Uncles
Ethan (Jenn) and Zachary MacPhee; as well as the Carr, Gilker, Freeman and Black families in New
Brunswick; the MacPhee, Clairmont, Scheler and Weger families in Winnipeg and the Field family in
Australia. The family would like to extend a thank you to Doctor M. Czarnecka, Doctor G. McCarthy,
the nursing staff of the 3rd floor at the St. Boniface Hospital for their care of Melanie and Devin,
as well as to Father Garry for blessing Devin. We also thank our family and friends for their
expressions of sympathy and support. Cremation has taken place and a private family service will be
held at a later date. Should friends so desire, donations in Devin's memory, may be made to the St.
Boniface Hospital and Research Foundation, D1003-409 Taché Ave., Winnipeg, MB R2H 2A6 The Coutu
family in care of arrangements: E.J. COUTU CO. FUNERAL DIRECTORS 680 Archibald St. 253-5086

Devin you will be forever in our hearts and our thoughts. We love and miss you our little angel.

My little angel
So tiny yet so beautiful
My heart has a hole
That will never be filled.

Time they say heals all hurts
But how can it heal this endless emptiness
That I feel without you here with me
Empty arms that wont hold you.

Tears that fall
That no one can see
A heart that beats
But feels broken.

Longing to hold you
But knowing I never will
Imagining what could have been
Filled with troubling thoughts of what if's.

Those perfect fingers
Those perfect toes
Of an angel that once was here
But now is gone.

Written in memory of Devin

~Devin’s Story~

I found out I was pregnant with you in October 2008. It was probably one of the happiest days of my
life, and I think your daddy would probably agree. The moment I knew I was having you I couldn’t
wait to meet you. It was a beautiful feeling being pregnant. However, sometimes I wish it would
end so I could finally hold you in my arms. Now I wish I had of cherished the 9 months we had
together more than I did.

The first time I felt you kick I was ecstatic! It was the most amazing feeling in the world knowing
I had a beautiful baby growing inside me. You were quite a little active baby too! When we had the
ultrasound to see you we were so excited. We weren’t sure we would be able to find out your sex,
but to our surprise we were. You were a boy! We were so happy.

As it neared the end of the 9 months you seemed to be a very active boy. I wanted so much to meet
you and hold you for the first time.

On June 4, 2009 I went to see Dr. McCarthy for the regular pre-natal appointment. For some reason I
was quite nervous waiting for the appointment. When the Dr. brought me in he went through the
regular questions and then checked for the heartbeat. There was none. I thought there was a
mistake. The Dr. asked me to follow him across the street to the hospital. I was shaking like a
leaf. He took me to the labour and delivery ward and got me lie down. I couldn’t believe this
was happening, my life was being turned upside down. The technician’s tried to find a heartbeat
but they were not able to either. Than they took me for an ultrasound. The words they said to me
will haunt me forever “I’m sorry your baby has died”. I was devastated. I couldn’t
understand how this had happened to you.

The next few hours were a blur. I waited for your daddy to be with me. He was just as devastated
as I was. We spent the next few hours holding each other and crying. I gave birth to you early
June 6, 2009. After the nurses took you away to bathe you I was in a state of numbness.

They brought you back an hour or so later so we could hold you. This would be the first time and
the last time we got to see you, our Angel Devin. We took lots of pictures to remember you by.

Leaving the hospital with empty arms was one of the worst feelings I’ve ever experienced. All I
wanted was to have you with me, but I knew I couldn’t. The only thing that brought me comfort in
this time was knowing you were up in heaven watching over us.

We love you and miss you Devin and always will.


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I believe

Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And it’s like you haven’t been gone a moment from my side,
Like the tears were never cried,
Like the hands of time were pulling you and me.

And with all my heart I’m sure we’re closer than we ever were,
I don’t have to hear or see I’ve got all the proof I need.
There are more than angels watching over me

I believe
Oh I believe

Now when you die and life goes on,
It doesn’t end here
When you’re gone every soul has found a flight
It never ends if I’m right.

Our love can even reach across eternity.

I believe
Oh I believe

Forever you’re a part of me,
Forever in the heart of me,
I will hold you even longer if I can.
Oh the people, who don’t see the most,
See that I believe in ghosts.
If that makes me crazy then I am

Cuz I believe
Oh I believe

There are more than angels watching over me.

I believe
Oh I believe

Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin,
I feel you come back again
And I believe.

Diamond Rio

Melanie Macphee (Mommy) October 25, 2009

LITTLE fella
I'm just a little fella
Who didn't quite make it there.
I went straight to be with*Jesus
But I'm waiting for you there.
Don't you fret about me Mommy
I'm of all God's lambs most blest.
I'd have loved to stay there with you
But the shepherd knows what's best.
Many dwelling here where I live
waited years to enter in
Struggled through a world of sorrow
And there lives are marred with sin.
So sweet Mommy don't you sorrow
Wipe those tears and chase the gloom.
I went straight to Jesus' bosom
from my lovely mother's womb.
Thank you for the life you gave me
It was brief, but don't complain.
I have all of Heaven's glory
Suffered none of earthling's pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me
I'd have loved to brought it fame.
But if I'd lingered in earth's shadows
Might instead have brought it shame.
Daddy gave me something for you
It's our secret, Mommy dear.
Pressed it tight against my forehead
Whispered in my tiny ear.
I'll be waiting for you, Mommy
You and Daddy, Bud and Sis.
I'll be with you then, forever
Then I'll give you Daddy's kiss.

Author unknown

Melanie Macphee (Mommy) October 18, 2009

I wrote a poem yesterday for you.

In my arms never again
Forever in my heart
Will you be
Dreams of you
Keep me awake at night.

Little angel
Taken to soon
A light that was extinguished
Way before your time.

Words that can make a heart break
Said to me over and over again in my thoughts
Telling me you were gone
You may be gone but never forgotten.

Melanie Macphee (Mommy) October 16, 2009

The Invisible Cord

We are connected,
My child and I,
by An invisible cord
Not seen by the eye.

It’s not like the cord
That connects us ’til birth
This cord can’t been seen
By any on Earth.

This cord does its work
Right from the start.
It binds us together
Attached to my heart.

I know that it’s there
Though no one can see
The invisible cord
From my child to me.

The strength of this cord
Is hard to describe.
It can’t be destroyed
It can’t be denied.

It’s stronger than any cord
Man could create
It withstands the test
Can hold any weight.

And though you are gone,
Though you’re not here with me,
The cord is still there
But no one can see.

It pulls at my heart
I am bruised…
I am sore,
But this cord is my lifeline
As never before.

I am thankful that God
Connects us this way
A mother and child
Death can’t take it away!

Author Unknown

Melanie Macphee (Mommy) September 17, 2009

A Mother's Grief

You ask me how I'm feeling,
but do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go

How can I tell you,
what it's been like for me
I am haunted, I am broken
By things that you don't see

You ask me how I'm holding up,
but do you really care?
The moment I start to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.

Because I am so lonely,you see,
friends no longer come around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.

Everyone avoids me now,
I guess they don't know what to say
They told me I'll be there for you,
then turned and walked away.

Call me if you need me,
that's what everybody said,
But how can I call and screaming to the phone,
My God, my child is dead?

No one will let me say the words
I need to say
Why does a mothers grief
scare everyone away?

I am tired of pretending
my heart hammers in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
but my soul finds no rest.

How can I tell you things
that are too sad to be told,
of the helplessness of holding a child who in your arms grows cold?

Maybe you can tell me,
How should one behave,
who's had to follow their childs casket,
watched it perched above a grave?

You cannot imagine what it was like
for me that day
to place a final kiss upon that box,
and have to turn and walk away.

If you really love me,
and I believe you do,
if you really want to help me,
here is what I need from you.

Sit down beside me,
reach out and take my hand,
Say " My friend, I've come to listen,
I want to understand."

Just hold my hand and listen
that's all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
it's alright if you do to.

I swear that I'll remember till the day
I'm very old,
the friend who sat and held my hand
and let me bare my soul.

Kelly Cummings 12/8/03

Melanie Macphee (Mommy) September 14, 2009

angels called your name so gently,
That only you could hear.
No one heard the footsteps,
Of angels drawing near.

Softly from the shadows
There came a gentle call,
You closed your eyes and went to sleep,
And quietly left us all.
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Debra Keefe September 2, 2009

If we could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true
We’d pray to god with all our hearts
For yesterday and you
A thousand words can’t bring you back
We know because we’ve tried
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we’ve cried
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too……
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted you


again author unknown

Melanie Macphee (Mommy) August 25, 2009

Life Beyond


Let them go, but not completely.
Hold on to them, but not too tightly.
Love them as you know you will,
as you always have.

Rejoice that they are well, the only difference
now is that you cannot see them,
But you feel them still and they will always be with you.
The spirit does not die as the body dies
and Love is of the spirit.

Nothing you have experienced together can be taken from you.
And your loved one shall be eternally yours in that love.
Weep not too long, that they may also cry,
But rejoice in their life and in yours also.
Let yours continue to be a celebration of all life; of your shared love,
Knowing that God holds you both in the palm of his hand
And in loving you both shall reunite you.

Author Unknown.

Melanie Macphee (Mommy) August 25, 2009

Your my 1st thought in the morning
And my last thought in the night.
You’re the frostly air in mornings chill.
It’s your strength that pulls me throw.
It’s you who keeps me going your spirits still alive.
Even after we buried you it’s only your body that died.
We only said goodbye with words yet I kissed you a million times.
I was still afraid to say goodbye…even for a little while.
I dream of you all the time I think about you day and night.
I long to be in your arms once more where I feel safe and calm.
Dreaming of you just is not enough
You’re soon to be a memory
All traces of you gone with the winds sudden blowing push.
No more me and you.. no more us.. no more love.
No more photos no more tears no pain for you to ever feel,
Asleep for ever away from harm with the angels wrapped in there arms.
You know I miss you, you know I care
But its time for me to be strong yet fair
I still miss you and I still cry
Thinking of you all the time,
Sleep tight for now close your eyes
I’ll see you in a little while.

Serina Roper July 20, 2009

After making his new angel
God looked down from above
He happened to notice you
And all he saw was love

He said to the angel
"I need to send you there,
There is where you'll be loved
Where you will feel the most care"

So God sent you this angel
To nuture, love and grow
But not an angel you could keep
For it would soon be time to go

You taught this angel wonderful things
That only a mother could do
Your angel learnt compassion and warmth
Whilst living inside of you

This angel was one that would have to leave
One you'd hardly hold
One you'd mourn for the rest of your life
If the truth be told

God realised you'd miss this angel
And so he gave you tears
A way to express your love
Over the coming years

Then God called this angel home
And asked what the angel had learned
The angel said a love so strong
In a mothers heart had burned

"I learnt that love can exist
Even when I've gone
For love never dies you see
I've learnt it carries on"

God looked at the angel
Smiled and gave a sigh
"You have learnt a valuable lesson
That often passes people by"

The angel looked at God and asked
"Why is my mummy so sad?"
God answered "when I called you home
It made her miss what she had;

But soon she will realise
I sent her a special gift
I sent her you my child
Although I took you swift

Her love for you will never wain
You will remain ever in her heart
You will be in her thoughts and feelings
Like you've never been apart"

The angel asked God what this mummy did
To deserve such a wonderful thing
"Your mummy is so pure of heart
she makes the angels want to sing"

The angel thanked God
For giving him such a lovely mum
So you see in loving your angel
Your work is truly done

God didn't wish to punish you
He only showed you love
He gave you a special angel
A gift from heaven above

He knows only a special person
Can be an angel mum
He made us in his image
He lost his only son

He know's just how your heart aches
And wished that wasn't so
But your angel is so happy
In God's heavenly home

So when you think of your angel
Please just smile, don't weep
Be proud that God chose you
To love an angel so sweet

When your heart feels empty
Your life so full of despair
Remember God picked you!
Because no-one else compares
(Author Unknown)

Gillian Taylor July 19, 2009
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